[ oh god late-ass vacation day 1??? backdated to the 3rd. ish. ]

[hasaringonit]

[ Hello, Zawame City, you have a tiny visitor in a cute pink coat and her super cute new boots all but hiding behind your enormous graperider and maybe also possibly she has a hand curled into the sleeve of his shirt ]

This is Kureshima-san's home?

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[grapesofyan]

I still tried to kill them.

[hasaringonit]

Is it not proof enough that they still care for you?

[grapesofyan]

Mm, it is. *But he's still working on forgiving himself*

[hasaringonit]

I suppose it is quite difficult.

[grapesofyan]

What is?

[hasaringonit]

Coming to terms with something like that. Believing anyone could possibly forgive.

[grapesofyan]

It is.

[hasaringonit]

It is not so different from myself.

[grapesofyan]

How so?

[hasaringonit]

I once believed no person could like me, or could accept me. I have no memories, or warmth in my skin. I believed I was only a monster shaped like a human. Who could care for that? Who could treat someone like that as an equal--as a friend? I was only a burden.

[grapesofyan]

It's something you can't help. It was never your fault.

[hasaringonit]

It had to be, don't you see? Why else would I have been this way? I did not know who or what I was. One could only guess how it was that I could exist. At first, it was believed I was the remnants of a Gate who failed to produce a Phantom, yet was unable to overcome their despair.

But ... that has changed.

[grapesofyan]

How?

[hasaringonit]

I understand what I am, now. I understand more about people, now. That if someone wants to be your friend, to care for you ... such things are not important.

[grapesofyan]

It's true usually.

[hasaringonit]

People make mistakes. They hurt those they care about. But if they are remorseful, if they understand what they did, there is still hope.

[grapesofyan]

There are differences between us though.

[hasaringonit]

I could not dare to say our situations are identical.

[grapesofyan]

You didn't have a choice in what you are or were. I did. It's why this is difficult.

[hasaringonit]

Kureshima-san is intelligent. He will find a way.

[grapesofyan]

With time.

[hasaringonit]

With time, yes. Kureshima-san has that, now.

[grapesofyan]

*A small smile* Mm. It takes time to digest it all.

[hasaringonit]

Then it's alright.

[grapesofyan]

It's hard to feel like it is at times.